Heart pounding,
mind racing.
I'm going insane.
Breathe.
The need,
the addiction.
Just cup your head
and breathe.
World spinning,
body tingling.
Hold yourself
and breathe.
Everything will be just fine;
you're going to be all right.
Just remember
to breathe.
She's sitting so close to me.
I can almost feel the warmth
from her skin.
Oh, how badly I want to touch her.
To grab her hand,
and steal her away from this world.
She doesn't deserve
to go through all of this pain.
I've seen her scars,
and I know she's seen mine.
There's a butterfly on her wrist.
She's giving me subtle hints.
I steal a glimpse,
and our eyes lock.
My heart is racing.
Can she hear it?
Thoughts soar through my mind.
If only she knew,
she would be mine.
I can't stand it.
The way you touch me.
The way you yell at me.
The things you say to me.
The way you degrade me.
But it's all right.
I've never had any self-esteem
and it's just dropping now.
Just keep going.
I dare you.
Push me one more step
away.
Push me further.
I dare you.
Push me towards the pills.
Push me towards the blade.
Push me towards suicide.
I dare you.
No, it's okay.
Because when you find me
lying lifeless
you'll finally
be sorry.
