When someone wants to die

It gets really hard! Whenever it is you or anyone you love...
In this case it was me.

I didn't try to comitt suicide, but I cut... and it still hurts. This time I really hit rock bottom :/
How I know? I tell you why,
1. Having thoughts such as "I want to die" or "Why me? Why am I alive?" echoing in my mind
2. the cutting
3. Had the same clothes for 3 days
4. Skipped a total of 4 schooldays in 3 weeks (I've never been a person who skips classes)
5. Behind in every course I'm reading
6. the insomnia
7. the drinking
8. the smoking
9. the confusion of not knowing ANYTHING
10. the fact that I couldn't remember when I last had a shower

So yeah it was pretty bad...
However I am trying to fix this!
Wish me luck and hopefully there will be no more scars